soapbox....hope you don't get offended....

For the last few months I have been going round think things dont matter....You know what? Things do matter. I am in a position to where I can help people get better from some of their situations and I see things that frustrate me to the core! I feel like I have a good heart and a good understanding of how people work, what they may need...emotionally or physically...anyway I feel like I give people a level of understand that they think they need...call that cocky or whatever..... Anyway I have seen lots, especially within the last few months, that have frustrated me to the core! I love people and want to help people become the best that they can be...(kinda like the army :) ) but it makes me so frustrated when I try as hard as I can to help that person and all they do is sit and complain that the 'world/government' hasn't done enough for them. Me, personally, work my butt off at a job that pays not near enough for the things I do and have to deal with (emotionally and physically) and still have a hard time making it on my own...I can't have all the things that I want (...my own apartment, enough money for a new car, a phone that doesn't die every few hours, enough money to survive on....etc...) but still I work my butt off, picking up extra shifts every week, working myself stupid/weird schedules just so I can make ends me. And then I see people that I know and people that I meet that have a brand new car, 2 Iphones and Itouch 'stuff' and LIVING off the government....and you know what those people tell me???! That they aren't getting ENOUGH from the government and they have to do without! It makes me so frustrated that people here in the 'wonderful' United States of America can be so freakin selfish and DISHONEST about their lifes! What kind of society have we become!!??? There are people in this world that don't have clothes, food, or even a freaking roof over their head to protect them from the REAL evils of the world. What do you think it says about us?! Do you even realize what that says?!!! NO wonder why people think that AMERICANS are jerks and that we think we are so 'above the law'. Good heaven people!!!!! I know that it is human nature to want more and to want the best, of course I want more than what I have and can afford...but WHY, in all that is freaking holy, can't you see that you NEED to live within your means?!! That means PAY YOUR BILLS FIRST!!!! You need to think of what you NEED not of what you want! It breaks my heart to know so many amazing friends of mine will go without getting clothes, food, schooling of any kind this year...and some other people that I know will leach off the government to say 'help me....I don't have enough because I can't get an iphone....' . I have been increasingly sad for the past few months as I have seen things like this day in and day out. I know this is just a 'standying on my soap box' but please, PLEASE don't forget about what is really the good things about life. Those things are the little things...Like my little niece that said my name for the first time and ran to give me a hug at age 2 (made me feel like I was missed so much), the smiles that your grandparents give you when you haven't seen them in a few weeks, the words of thanks that you get for cleaning a family members house, making cookies for a friend when they had a bad day, telling a co-worker that they helped you out and that you are extremely appreciative of what they did.......etc.... why can't we seem to have a happiness of the simple things in life? This I am still learning myself.

Okay I am sorry...I will stop my mid-morning ramblings...I sincerely hope that each one of you have a fantastic day and you live it to the fullest...You Deserve it...Don't Forget that!!!!

~Love Ash