The Queen of Mischief

2012-01-14T16:27:00.000-08:00

this is charlee doing an awesome move that i am learning how to do.

this is in our be bendy class..just a flexibility class that i love. i took this picture when i was in that position myself :)

me finding my balance

the silks before anyone is in them...I thought it was a cool photo

Upside down

2012-01-14T16:21:00.000-08:00

Aerial Hammock

2012-01-14T16:08:00.000-08:00

new favorite thing

2012-01-11T02:43:00.000-08:00

My new favorite hobbies include pole dancing, aerial silk, aerial hammock, and be bendy classes!! Love love love them! I hope to have some pictures to come soon of some of my fun new tricks I can do :) I have made some wonderful new friends and have found some "dancing" classes that I am pretty good at and have tons of fun everyday at. I hate missing a day dancing, I need to get a place of my own that I can have a pole installed so I can dance daily.

wont lie

2011-12-22T14:52:00.000-08:00

I won't lie I am excited that once again Christmas is almost over! I have a hard time with holidays of any sort and I am excited that they will be over once more. I am getting a little better and this year hasn't been as uncomfortable as others...so maybe one day I will enjoy them again

Christensen family pictures

2011-11-29T14:50:00.001-08:00

My sister Shauntae asked me to do some family pictures for her a few weeks ago and I finally narrowed them down and picked my favorites, yes I know there are still a lot of pictures but I couldn't skimp out on the cute pictures :)

Deer committing suicide

2011-11-29T14:30:00.000-08:00

Well another deer has sadly fallen due to the fact that he was not so bright and ran out into the bright light of my wonderful car :( My car has taken it kind of hard since hitting the poor thing and has decided that it should no longer run right now. From the outside view, my beautiful blue, doesn't look too bad. but take a look under the hood and you get a different story

set back

2011-11-29T09:40:00.000-08:00

Sorry guys, if anyone still reads this blog, I have had some set backs but should be back up and running/writing soon :) love you all, hope you all had a great Thanksgiving!

Africa, I miss you terribly!!

2011-10-10T19:12:00.000-07:00

My little buddy
The Zam Family

Us crazy adventure driven gals, before the zip line

Vic Falls

Vic falls

My heaven

I loved it

My best friend Ireen

My girls!

My boys I miss you!

Phlebotomy

2011-10-10T19:01:00.001-07:00

For the last few months I have been taking a Phlebotomy class. I have loved every minute of it. I am going to really miss my friends from that class. Here are some pictures from class

2011-08-22T17:48:00.000-07:00

riley, cohen and ben

shannon's family :)

me and my uncle lynn

reagan and her "look"

morgan

and here is me

Pictures of Ellie's party

2011-08-22T17:37:00.000-07:00

yes yes ellie I can see you

randy and ellie

cousin kellie and reagan

me and grandpa and grandma wyatt

grandpa stucki and ellie

ellie's cake!

Ellie's First Birthday

2011-08-19T08:51:00.000-07:00

My niece Ellie turned 1 this past week and my sister Malissa asked me to take some picture of her....here are some of my favorites.

in no special order

2011-08-14T15:18:00.000-07:00

A very cute picture of my niece Hannah
My cousins from Colorado. The whole family was able to make it to Utah, the first time they all have been here in the last 6 years.
I was driving home from work at 0530 and was able to see this wonderful view. These pictures don't do it justice but they will have to do.
Yup its a full moon
My last day at AFCU!!!! oh what a bittersweet day it was! Rachel and I
Kayla and I
One day a few weeks ago I was sitting in class and we all of the sudden heard this really loud noise...we look outside and see one of the most outrageous rainstorms I have ever seen...it was so bad it flooded parts of Kaysville. these pictures are of the clouds after the storm.

my adopted big brothers...love my cousins
while my cousins were in town we ended up going to TOADS...we did mini golf and race carts. Loved it. we were able to get my grandma to do them as well :)
evidence that grandma will race :)
Kellie!
and me :) it was a fun day!
:) Loved it! Thanks aunt Lorie, Kellie, Sara and grandma!!! love ya ladies!

Bucket list

2011-08-01T12:15:00.000-07:00

I know I have had a bucket list before but I don't remember what was on it...so today while I was bored at work I decided to make a bucket list of all the things I have wanted to do...You will noticed that I have done some of the things already. I am sure I will come up with more but to start us out:

Ashlee’s Bucket List
1) Skydiving COMPLETED
2) Bungi Jumping/bungi swing COMPLETED
3) Zip Line COMPLETED
4) Go to Italy COMPLETED
5) Learn to Surf
6) Learn the guitar
7) Make my own sushi
8) Go for a hot air balloon ride
9) Go for a wine tasting tour
10) Backpack across Europe
11) Travel the world
12) Ride the London Eye
13) Ride an Elephant COMPLETED
14) Ride a camel
15) Ride in a Viper car
16) Drive a motorcycle COMPLETED
17) Go on a Safari in Africa COMPLETED
18) Do some humanitarian work COMPLETED
19) Help build a house
20) Rock climb outside
21) Repel
22) Cliff dive
23) Go to a Broad way play in New York
24) Ride in the Tour to Cure
25) Run a 5k COMPLETED
26) Learn to belly dance, pole dance, ballroom dance
27) Study meditation
28) Water ski COMPLETED
29) Snowboard COMPLETED
30) Learn to scuba dive
31) Watch all of the star wars movies
32) Ride a skateboard
33) Knit a purse

waiting.....

2011-08-01T08:24:00.000-07:00

Boy after I had made up my mind that I am going to make a change and quit one job it has been extremely hard to go to that job everyday. Mind has power over everything else. It is hard to just sit day after day after day...but at least there is a end in sight :) One day at a time.

Yummy treats

2011-07-26T08:35:00.000-07:00

I had a sister tell me that she wanted Chocolate covered strawberries and that she would be to my house sunday to get some....Now I know she was only half serious about the fact that she wanted some on sunday but I decided that it sounded mighty yummy so I made some chocolate covered Strawberries and Oreo's.

Sunset on the River

2011-07-22T21:15:00.000-07:00

This picture is one that I took on my river safari while in Africa. I loved the safari and the river just made it so relaxing. I loved just sitting back on the boat listening to the quiet, peaceful sounds. The waves hitting the side of the boat, seeing the animals in their natural home, and just being able to enjoy the beauty that was all round me. It made the Trip seem more real.

BUNGI

2011-07-22T21:05:00.000-07:00

Okay so I was trying to load the videos of my bungi jump and bungi swing...but so far i haven't been able to get it to work, so I posted pictures intead.

coming to my senses

2011-07-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

So the first part of my life changing plans has been to come to my senses that I don't need my 2 jobs so I have finally put notice in to America First. My last day will be August 19th :) I have come to my senses and realize that I need more sleep and fun time. I now might have a lot of time on my hands but we will deal with that when the time comes. I am excited, nervous, sad, anixous and have alot of different emotions and feelings about this new chapter in my life.

Decisions

2011-07-20T13:38:00.001-07:00

I have lots of big decisions and I have started putting some of those decisions into action. I just hope I am not making a 'wrong' decision...only time will tell. I am not completely happy so I am trying to fix that and find out what I need to do to make me happy with my circumstance, so here is to making decisions become reality! Stay tuned to find out how it all unfolds.

trying to be crafty

2011-07-18T08:23:00.000-07:00

After getting back from africa I have been trying to find new things to do and to try. Just about everyone over there is very crafty and creative..They usually have to be. So I thought maybe I could learn to be a bit more creative. I love fun and different earrings so I have decided I want to try to make some of my own. These are the first pairs of earrings that I have made. They didn't turn out too bad :) It was kind of fun and I will be making more I am sure.

story

2011-07-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

This story was shared with me and I wanted to share it here. Thanks Jen for the story.

The Mayonnaise Jar
When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family, children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions.
Things, that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your Job, House, and Car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you. So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

more pictures of africa

2011-07-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

I saw this guy on my river safari...it was a good thing he didn't move :)

A cool picture of some of the team on the upper deck of the boat.

Lisalee showing us how to shake it

Amber and Kennedy

Ladies from a village carrying water back to their homes

A girl and I skipping church and just enjoying each others company

Tess holding a boy at the CRC that was having a hard time that day.

This is what they do during the winter...they burn all the tall grass down

Amber and a boy from the village

A lady with her bundle she was trying to sell

some cute kittens

I have no words for this one.

Bev, Anthony, Shayne and I. In this picture there are 3 of us that Shayne has really helped and impacted our lives.

Anthony and I

Too much

2011-07-12T03:55:00.000-07:00

Okay So I have been back home since Friday and I have had a hard time adjusting back to life here. There were so many things to see, feel and do while I was there that it is kind of hard to explain everything. I have had a hard time trying to express what I feel and why. I did have a great time yes, it was hard and very sad/depressing to see alot of things. Would I do this exact program again? No, just for the fact that once I have done something I usually like to try something different...but yes I would love to go back to Africa and help some more people but just doing different things and in different places that I went this time. I got to meet alot of really sweet people. I love the Zambian people. They are so loving and happy just about all the time. Of course they have their hard moments and do feel down like we do but for the most part they are a so much more happy, smiling, loving people than the most of our nation...which is kind of sad. Don't get me wrong we have a great nation and I love it here and we do have really happy, sweet, caring, loving and smiling people here but also over here we are a lot more of a "hurried" nation and sometimes forget to have those quailties radiate from within us--myself very much included in that statement. Going over there I saw some people that literally had NOTHING but the rags they have as clothes and those people are the ones that are smiling the most. It is amazing to me that they have so little but are so much happier than we seem to be somedays. I am hoping that I can keep the feeling of Zambia and have my love for others radiate through me...I know I have a ways to go on being completely open to alot of things but this trip has helped me try to see more fully the happy things in the little things throughout the day. I also on this trip saw alot of things within me that I need to work on but at the same time I saw some really great things about me that those have been trying to get me to see...i am just a little stubborn so it sometimes takes me a while. Sorry this is just kind of a ramble post and it is not everything i want to say but it is a start. If any of you want stories or to hear or have questions about any of my pictures or time over there just let me know and I will post some more stuff. :) Love ya all and thanks for all you do everyday.
Alice--a girl from the CRC--and I swinging.

Gift enjoying some Ketchup as a treat

Gift enjoying the sun and not wanting to be in our first aid class

Lisalee and I after I had painted her toenails.

Brotherly love

Kennedy listening to his teacher

Alice and I again.

Allison and Lisalee

yes those are fish in the bucket...and just to let you know they are VERY heavy!!! I don't know how all the people carry things on their head that is so heavy and for as long as they do. Oh goodness they must have strong neck muscles.

a cute girl from one of the villages we went to.

I held a chicken, my grandpa will be proud

Alex and Tess showing their "gangesta-ness" they spelled 'blood' with their hands

This is I think my most favorite photos that I got the whole time I was there....we had gone to a village and went to visit a village grandma..sadly i never got a picture of the really cute grandma but i am sure one of the other people in my group did (the grandma was really cute and sweet) anyway this sweet grandma has taken care of OVER 60 children in her lifetime-whether they were her blood family or not...this sweet boy wouldn't leave her side and was very shy..he is adoreable. The look is just so vunerable that is it heart breaking to me.

This little girl is about about 10years old and she is in charge of her little brother that is on her back..such a sweet and pretty girl.

This picture was taken at one compound we had gone to visit...that day we got to help feel the children there....we feed over 600 children (I believe that was the number I heard)

This boy was just sitting in the middle of a crowd at the compound and just stared at me for a long moment...love this photo as well

wonderful

2011-06-20T22:05:00.000-07:00

Today was a great day! It was nice and relaxing. I got up and went shooting with my dad and brother in law, then had lunch with a really great guy, walked in the park, went to the movies, and came home to finish packing and chat with some of my family. I hope you all have a wonderful next few weeks. Love ya all, see ya on the flip side!

fathers

2011-06-19T21:08:00.001-07:00

today was fathers day and I was able to spend the day with my family celebrating my dad. it was a good relaxing day. Thank you all that have made the last few days really great.

photo shoot :)

2011-06-18T19:01:00.000-07:00

My adoreable friends are getting asked me to take some family pictures for them...Thanks for letting have tons of fun and shooting TONS of shots for you guys. Anytime you want more just let me know, I had a blast! Hope you like them.

Pictures

2011-06-18T18:11:00.000-07:00

Today I am very thankful for great friends that have good faith in me to take pictures for them. Thank you Julie and Kaj for letting me take your pictures today! I loved it and had tons of fun! I have forgotten how much I completely LOVE photography.

Last day

2011-06-17T18:10:00.000-07:00

Today I am very thankful for my last day of work for the next 3 weeks! I am finally getting really excited for my trip!!!

oh Brother ;)

2011-06-16T10:27:00.001-07:00

Today I am very thankful for my little brother! Riley you are so fun and loving. You don't always show us girls your soft loving side but being your sister I get to see that. You are wonderful and sweet! Whatever girl gets you is going to be lucky not only to have all of us sisters but mostly to get you. You are very smart and hard working. You work extremely hard with whatever you do but you also know how to have fun. You are willing to get to know anyone and do just about anything to get to know a cute girl ;) You are alot like dad and our grandpas...meaning not just that you can fall asleep where ever ;) but because you are very hard working and motivated. You care a ton about people and about providing service for others. You are a good student and are not afraid to work for what you want. You have a ton of friends and are always looking to get more. Thank you for all that you do for me and for what a great example you are to me. Thanks for being understanding and for loving us sisters even though I know it can't be easy sometimes. Thank you for always trying to include me and for letting me come bug you and the girls when you decide to bring one up with you. Thanks for giving me a reason to make cookies at least every other week or so :) Love you little brother!!

Sisters

2011-06-15T08:10:00.000-07:00

Today I am very grateful for my sisters. As many of you know I have lots of sisters and sometimes I will be honest, it can get pretty crazy with all the different emotions all of us bring but I love my sisters! It has been wonderful to get to know them better and not just a sister but as a friend. They each are so different and wonderful in their own ways and our family wouldn't be the same with one of them missing.

Shauntae: she is strong willed and does a ton of things that I am not sure I could do. Shauntae is very very smart. She is amazing pianist, she can sight read and count--If you know me I can't count for the life of me :) She has two cute kids that she does really great raising. Shauntae helped me a lot during my really dark time. She shared a lot of different thoughts and different things that happened in her life that I didn't know about. She helped me a lot and I don't know if I ever said anything to her but Thank you Shauntae! I love you, and thank you for all you do!

Shannon: she was been willing to let me stay at her house so often that I have my own shelf in her bathroom downstairs :) Staying at her place has been wonderful for me to have some place to stay in between my jobs as well as get to know my sister better. She has a ton of patience with her kids. she is much to patient I think sometimes :) lol She is a wonderful cook and very creative with how she can get her kids to eat some of the things they need to eat. She is very understanding and willing to help. Thank you Shannon for all you do, AND for letting me stay at your house all the time! Love you!

Malissa: she is very sweet, funny, giving. She does so much for everyone and won't let many people help her in return. She is very strong and patient. She is very creative as well, she can make things to do and eat. She is always have people over to her place or watching other people's kids...she is always so good with all of them. She is very caring and willing to listen. She is very soft hearted woman and I love that because I am too. Malissa is a great cook, love her food :) Thanks for everything you do. Love you! Oh and Malissa is the only one that comes and visits me at work (she can get up on base) It was fun to see you today! Thanks for the surprise visits :)

Michele: She is very smart, funny, caring and spiritual. She is always doing something and willing to help. She does a lot of stuff with her new ward in Ogden and friends from work. She is always doing new things like trying book club, going to the concerts, plays, movies, or just whatever. She is very giving and thoughtful. She has a great sense of humor and a great listening ear. Thank you for all you do for me, thanks for the patiences to deal with me. I know I am not the best sister out there and you put up a lot from me. She is goregous and has some of the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. You have a ton of energy and hope, I need to get some of it. Thank you for all you do, thanks for inviting me and wanting me to be included in whatever you are doing. Love you!

Ariana: she is funny and full of life. She is very thoughtful and bright. She has a great sense of humor and loves to have fun. She likes to include people and doing things with friends. She has a ton of friends and willing to gain more. She is very thoughtful and loving, especially when it comes to her nieces and nephews. She is going to be a great mom when she has kids; she is always one of the first ones to help out and babysit or do things with the kids. Thank you for always being willing to listen to me and to include me in whatever you are doing. You are wonderful, thank you for everything you do. Love you lots.

Thank you very much my sisters. I love you all and you are all beautiful and wonderful!

2011-06-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

Thankful for nice and helpful people. My car has had some recent struggles as well as me LOL but I am thankful my dad, grandpa, grandma, Aunt Diane, and my mom for trying to help with my most recent struggle with my car. Thanks for taking the time to help a stressed out girl get her car running and to work on time (even though i really didn't want to go to work) and getting off later in the day to Idaho than you have planned. Thank you muchly. love you all

My Dad

2011-06-13T13:09:00.000-07:00

For those of you that don't know, my dad rocks! My dad has been so amazing for as long as I can remember (so for 25 years+). Growing up my dad wasn't always around during the day because he was very very busy working so very hard so that he could provide for us as a family and so that my mom could be home with us everyday. My dad has taught us children to be hard workers. To dream big but also not be afraid to work hard for what you want. My dad worked so very hard to provide a good life for us children and he did a wonderful job. He has helped me in many many ways. He helps me try to be more of a calm and understanding individual (yes I know that hasn't really working so well) . He has taught me how to work hard, maybe too hard. My dad is so willing to help me with whatever I need. Thank you dad for all you do. You are amazing. You are such a soft hearted guy with a very big heart as well. You are more than willing to help anyone that needs it; and you do most of it without anyone asking you. You see a need for something and you do it. You are one of the best people I have ever known. I love you and thank you so much for everything that you do. I know that I don't tell you the enough but thank you so much for everything you do. You are the best. Love you Dad!!

Day off

2011-06-13T07:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I was thankful for a day off. I was able to come home and have a nap for a couple of hours and then be up for most of the day. I was so exhausted that I fell asleep around 830, or whenever my sister's ended up heading home. I fell asleep on the couch for a little while then was able to stumble down the stairs to my bed.

My mom

2011-06-11T17:57:00.000-07:00

I have the best Mother in the world! I can't tell you how much my mom has helped me over the last few weeks and especially the last few days. I have been a wreck and my mom has been there to help me through it. to give me a hug and tell me that things will be okay. Thank you mom for trying to give me strength and faith and hope and a lot of other things. just mostly thank you for being you! I love you! and you are the best!!!! I know I don't show you it all the time but I really appreciate everything that you do for me and for trying to help me see things more clearly. I love you!

out to lunch

2011-06-10T12:06:00.000-07:00

So much for a happy and relaxed ashlee...that didn't last long. Oh well. I guess my happy thought for today is....umm...I am sure I can think of something, give me a minute.

Nope my brain is out to lunch....I guess that is the happy thought.

.......Hope you all have a great weekend......

happy, relaxing

2011-06-09T21:46:00.000-07:00

Today's really happy spot was the fact that I got to go on a kick butt motorcycle ride this evening :) Riding on one is ss relaxing and enjoyable! It is so wonderful to be able to ride and feel the wind rush around you. it makes me feel free. After the last few days tonight was just what I needed before starting the next few days of hard work and long hours

Yellow Fever

2011-06-08T10:16:00.001-07:00

I am happy that I was able to get my Yellow fever shot this morning. Now I have all the shots taken care of for my trip :)

sweets

2011-06-07T10:11:00.000-07:00

I am a sucker for sweets and my new favorite treat for the time being are Dove Caramel chocolates. They are so delicious!!

FUN

2011-06-06T11:27:00.000-07:00

Today at work it has been just a fun and entertaining day. Thank you Jen and Kayla for our fun conversations!

2011-06-05T19:25:00.000-07:00

Today was a very relaxing and sunny day. There were a few things I wish I could have changed but all in all it wasn't too bad.

Breathe

2011-06-04T23:19:00.000-07:00

I had a hard time waking up this morning because I couldn't breathe. For those of you that know me you will most likly know what I mean when I say that. So for the first few hours of the morning I had a rough start. Today I am grateful for being able to breathe. This evening I got to spend with some old friends of mine. I was a little nervous that it might be a little awkward and uncomfortable, because me and some of these friends had kind of a falling out a few years ago and we never really have gotten back to being friends. However the night turned out better than I was thinking it would and I was seriously shocked with a few things and things that were said to me.... All in all it was a pretty okay day.

Oh my niece Hannah Lynn turned 1 today. I will have to post some pictures of her eating her cake.

Hello Yummy goodness

2011-06-03T08:32:00.000-07:00

Woke up this morning and had a deliciously yummy piece of razzleberry pie for breakfast! what a way to start the day!

weekly

2011-06-02T08:44:00.000-07:00

For working so hard every week, I am happy getting paid weekly :)

tootsie

2011-06-01T08:43:00.000-07:00

I was happy for a tootsie roll

2011-05-31T19:39:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for a good friend that let me vent and passed no judgement on me.

today's good thing

2011-05-30T22:43:00.000-07:00

Has been the fact that I am done orientating at work, but that comes with a down side as well...in the fact that it is scary! :) Don't worry today has been good though. It was a little nerve racking coming into work and going to two different floors but it has turned out to be a good day so far...7 hours down, 5 to go. Today when I got to work I wasn't feeling well so I was a little nervous on how I would do and if I would get feeling any better...good news is that I am feeling a ton better and the first 4 hours of my shift went by really fast. I started off on the IMC floor and had only about 4 patients and they were all very nice. I had one sweet little guy that you could barely understand but after a while I started understanding him a little easier and he didn't ever want me to leave his room. When I left to switch floors, this sweet little man told me that he was mad at me because he didn't want me to go and when I left him with his RN I could hear him calling out to me. He really reminded me of my patients that I use to take care of at the assisted living center. I miss my old friends from that place, I still think about them often and wonder who is still there and how they are doing. Isn't it crazy how fast life can change on us?? Anyway When I left my patient I went to the medical floor (which I have never trained on) and so far it has been pretty good. It has been a good night to be my first night by myself :)

grandparents

2011-05-29T00:00:00.000-07:00

The last few days I have been able to spend sometime with my Grandpa Stucki, and boy oh boy can I tell you that I just love that man!! He is one amazing man and I am SO lucky to have known him all my life! My grandpa has had some hard trials lately and in all honesty it has been really hard on a lot of us, but I have had a hard time with it and because of that I haven't seen my grandpa as much as I should have; so these last few days have been kind of an emotional ride for me. I love my grandpa with all my heart and it breaks my heart to see him having to go through this hard time. But on the flip side of things I have to gotten to know how much stronger he is and how much I wish I was like him. I need to be stronger like him. He makes it look so easy and he seems to deal with everything that has been thrown his way with ease. I hope one day to find a guy that is as wonderful as my grandpa. Today I am very grateful to get to spent time with my Grandpa. Thanks grandpa for everything that you do, have done and will do for me. I love you!!!

rain

2011-05-28T23:50:00.000-07:00

I was able to sleep in my own bed last night and it was great. I woke up and enjoyed a lazy day and then this evening I enjoyed a rainy relaxing night. I love the rain!

Like my TUTU?

2011-05-27T13:29:00.000-07:00

running shoes

2011-05-27T03:07:00.000-07:00

Running shoes are my happy thoughts for day 3 at 3:00am ;) for the past 10 hours I have been able to work on the OB floor at the hospital tonight and boy oh boy can I tell you that today has been a VERY BUSY and STRESSFUL day!!! I am so glad that I was able to buy two good pairs of running shoes about 4 months ago and have them broken in because today I have sure used them. :) 2 more hours to go.....on this job ;) Running shoes you have saved me once again!

#2----Blankets

2011-05-26T13:31:00.000-07:00

For my happy thought today it has been a little harder than yesterday. I started the day out snuggled in my bed with about 3 blankets on top of me trying to stay warm. I didn't wake up as wonderful as I did yesterday :( Today I woke with a start and realized that I was already running late. With a quick shower, and quick getting ready I was off to the races for the next couple of days. I was getting everything into my car and out falls a blanket that I always keep in my car for star gazing during the summer or for those days during the winter that it is so cold. My happy thought today was about the summer coming and all the possiblities for star gazing out on my soft blanket either by myself or with a friend ;) I am very excited for those days. Thank you blanket for being my happy thought for the day.

Day 1

2011-05-25T17:11:00.001-07:00

For my first day of "Happy thoughts" I will have to say I was very thankful for getting up this morning and having sun shine to greet me! Yesterday was a really rough day for me so going to be last night I was just really drained and just hoping I would make it through the night. Thankfully for me mother nature decided that she would help me get up and shine the sun through my window making me think that I over slept and would be late to work. I woke up and greeted the sun with a smile.

blog challenge

2011-05-25T14:08:00.000-07:00

Here on this 25th day of May 2011, I hereby raise this challenge to anyone that is daring to try...I propose to you; think and tell the world of bloggers about at least one happy thing that happens during your day for the next 27 days. I have been told that there is always a little ray of sunshine even within the most stormy of days...shall we see if we can find it?? I am willing to try, the question is......ARE YOU?!

random pics

2011-05-24T20:21:00.000-07:00

sometimes I wonder

2011-05-18T09:13:00.001-07:00

Lately I have become very reflective on things that have happened to me and things that I have done within the last few years. I sometimes wonder if I have just been letting life pass me by. I look at myself and wonder, 'what have you accomplished? You haven't gone to school, you aren't married, you have no kids and have no thoughts about really having any, you don't spend alot of time with friends or family, you don't have many hobbies, you don't exercise, you don't like your job, you can't say that you are happy, you don't do the things that use to make you happy...what, if anything ashlee, have you accomplished lately?' Sometimes I wonder what is the point? Do you know what it is? Any guess? I am sure some of you would say what I am missing is religion, or some would say I am missing having a family of my own, or a place of my own to call home, and some may just say it is just my attitute that needs to change and things will be better. Those are all good answers I guess...but I am not sure any of those would make me feel any better. Somedays it is just really hard to even want to get up in the morning. I have a wonderful family that has been there for me and loved me even when I was very angry and bitter, they were there for me during my "dark time". I have some really great friends as well and even though I don't see them or talk to them all the time I still cherish every moment I get to share with them. I feel silly because I am 25 years old and have NO idea what I want to be when I grow up. Most of my friends have already choosen a career and have finished schooling for it or are very close to being done and here I stand and have NO CLUE what so ever what I would even be interested in to study for. I feel so silly to say that but it is true. There are so many things out there in the world to learn and study for but what do I start with first? What if I hate what I am studying? What if I am not smart enough for it? What if I am too scared? What if...what IF?!! that question right there, those two simple words, those words hold so much and so little at the same time. How is that? Sorry I tend to ramble, if you are still reading...thank you ;) I should feel grateful and I am grateful for many, many things...but at the same time I still feel very unworthy I guess. I feel like I haven't accomplished anything to be proud of. I feel like I am in limbo and don't know how to get moving out of limbo. I once wanted to do photography but I don't feel like my photos are anything great anymore...I have friends and family that all have "photography business" and I don't.. I use to swim and was good at it..but now I am out of shape and out of practice with no motivation to get back in the water. I use to be a good piano player but can't seem to remember my song I composed. I use to be a great friend but feel like a failure because I have lost some great friends and don't know why. I use to be compassionate but I feel like my heart has no room for it...or my heart doesn't know how to deal with it any more. I use to have motivation to do many many things but now I can't seem to find motivation for anything...I am usually lucky if I can get myself out the door in time for work every day. I feel like I use to be a good worker at work but now feel just put down by things and just "make it by" every day. Okay I am sorry all of that is just very boring and sad. Sorry.
Now on to happy news, I am flying out country in about 1 month. CRAZY, I know!! I am scared, nervous, excited, worried, happy, stressed...and alot more different emotions at the moment. I am almost done with my orientation for my new CNA job...maybe someday I will be a nurse...who knows. It is almost summer time. I got a couple new books that I need to find time to read. Also I need to start knitting again and finish some projects I have going. I need to start excerising again, maybe I will tonight...we shall see. Or maybe I will make brownies or cookies and eat the whole batch. ...Oh what tonight will bring.

for now it is

2011-05-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

When you left the first time I watched in sadness and thought that was that, then you came back and said you were here to stay. As I watch you disappear into the night once more, how I wish I had held you more. You held everything in your words, and in your arms you held me. I doubt you understand how much it hurts to watch you go and have you never know how much I care. We could be great, you and I. But until there is another Hello; for now it is just goodbye.

yum

2011-04-22T09:32:00.001-07:00

Hello Strawberry short cake! you are Yummy!!
...enough said...

spice

2011-04-20T12:33:00.001-07:00

I need to spice things up again, anyone got good ideas on how to do that? :) Changes coming soon. So stay tuned!

Things I am tried of

2011-04-12T13:22:00.000-07:00

People that think they are funny when really they are not and having to do the courtesy laugh

listening to people complain about whatever they can think of just to complain. I am sorry I don't control the weather, I don't control the rates or economy. Stop complaining and realize that there has to be at least one thing that you are happy about in life.

people that don't tell the truth

people that make plans with you and then just flake out on you

people that think I am weaker than I am, just because I am small does not mean I am weak (I am not the hulk but I am not just a weakling either)

people that want me to read their mind, I am not a mind reader please communicate with me

things you might not know

2011-03-29T10:35:00.001-07:00

I don't know who reads my blog, if anyone, but I decided that I would tell you some things about me you might not know. Some might know and others might not know.

I am right handed but really want to become left handed as well.

I love the TV series Greys Antonmy, Friends, and One Tree Hill.

I have no real home anymore...I live between my parents house, my sister's house and my car...depending on the day and which job I work

I got my second job to distract me from unnecessary worry and stress; however I have just added to the stress and worry, go me ;)

I love reading so that I can escape and have some friends that the characters seem to be for me (lame I know)

I love puzzles. I could sit for hours listening to a movie or music while I was doing a puzzle

I have written a couple of song on the piano but need to put them on paper so I can play it the same way more than once

I can't play the same song the same way more than once

I have a love/hate relationship with food

I love to bake and then I hardly eat any of the food I bake

I pretend I am a tough person but really I am scared.

I don't really like being alone but I am constantly

I have bad luck with cell phones, guys and eating chocolate when wearing white

I haven't slept well or through the night for months

I have a huge sweet tooth

I am starting to love salads (or rabbit food as I call it)

I believe I am a fun, funny, smart, sweet, sensitive girl with a big heart.....I just need others to see these things

I try to be happy all the time but I have my bad days too

A couple of years ago I had a really hard time and it was a really dark unhappy time for me and I shut off my feelings/emotions for a good 2 years. I am now starting to have them come back and we aren't agreeing on things... so in other words I am kind of emotional sometimes because I don't know how to deal with my feelings anymore

I am very electronically challenged....computers, ipods, cell phones...etc.. we don't really agree much

I am scared to be alone, scared of success and failure

I have OCD alot at work

I clean when I get mad, frustrated or sad

I love to travel and see new things and even though it scares me I do alot of the traveling by myself

I always have to have some chapstick with me or I go nuts

Okay I think I will stop at 25 for now ;) Hope you all have a great day!

2011-03-27T12:45:00.000-07:00

Things to keep me entertained

2011-03-07T21:02:00.000-08:00

I have now picked up the hobby of knitting. Alot of the women at the hospital knit and they were wonderful to teach me how to do it. I am honestly surprised about how easy it is. I kind of really enjoy it.

Taste the rainbow! you have to make the rainbow before you can eat it...so I did. You should try it, it is enjoyable; you can feel like a little kid again.

I was out taking pictures and ran acrossed this redneck swing...I kind of want one.

One of things that I love the most is just being able to sit down and play the piano. I really hope to have a piano like this when I have my own place.

Snowy weekend

2011-02-21T15:10:00.000-08:00

This past weekend was a wonderful weekend to go out and shoot some pictures. I had a wonderful time finding some fun pictures, I hope you enjoy them.

The picture above was taken on Christmas day when My sweet grandpa decided to surprise my grandma with singing her favorite song to her. This was a tender moment that I actually got to capture.

The picture below is a picture of my surgeon. I paid him a little visit to tell him thank you for everything that he has done for me. He did an amazing job with all of my surgeries. I am still thinking if I want to go back in and have more done or not. This was the first time that I have seen my doctor in 6 years. 6 YEARS! can you believe it?! I can't believe it has been that long! Anyway Thank you Dr. Morales! I will be forever grateful for everything you have done!!!

things

2011-01-19T02:01:00.000-08:00

Things I do when I on call at work in the wee hours of the morning....

...youtube lots of random stuff
....use pandora alot!
....watch things on hulu
...try to get netflix to work on my laptop
...try to nap either in a couple of chairs or on a not so soft hospital bed
...and many other things of uselessness

gone shooting

2011-01-12T00:16:00.001-08:00

Just you watch, I will show you how its done

Look up cowboy....

...there you go ;)
See I told you I would show you how to do it

Very long past due pictures of everything!

2010-12-31T21:29:00.000-08:00

Every year at Christmas Grandpa Stucki makes everyone in the family sleighs, they are just made out of candy and every year grandpa comes up with something different about them. Him and grandma are just amazing people and I am so lucky to have them as grandparents. I love them both so very much!!

This guy right here is my uncle Dave. He is one fun guy. He likes everything and anything that has to do with guns and I am lucky to LOVE guns so he WILLINGLY takes me shooting with him. He was very surprised the first time we went shooting...he put out our target and told me that he wanted to see how well I could shoot...I said ok and when to town on it....after I unloaded the gun he brought the target in to see how well I did and this was what his reaction was "Damn girl!!! You ACTUALLY know how to shoot! You are pretty good!" :) I will have to say he was pretty shocked.

Also every year at christmas time grandpa stucki makes homemade pretzels, something that he use to do with his mom and he has been doing it ever since he was real young. Anyway I have been able to learn how to make them and I am hoping to be able to carry on the tradtion of making this pretzels! I have been making this with grandpa for the past 3 or 4 years straight, I have helped him many times but for the past few years it has just been me and him doing it. I love spending the time with him, we get to have a really great talk and I get to learn more about my grandpa everytime we do it. So far this year we have made 2 seperate batches (each batch takes at least 3 hours or longer) and we might be doing more this year.

This is a picture of us in the process of making the pretzels.

This little guy was mad that my phone wouldn't let him make a phone call..

This is a "sugar glider" They are some really cool animals, one of my co-workers bought two and decided to bring them in to work to show us one day. I like them! They are so cute, I think that one day I might get one!

A couple of months ago I ent to Colorado to visit some of my family out there, and I was there we went to a Brad Piesley concert. It was fun, he ended up singing one of my favorite songs called "Whiskey Lullaby". It was a great concert!

This is my other "adopted brother". My cousin Kyle. When we were younger I use to be able to "beat up" this kid and be able to pin him down....Now look at him! He is over a foot taller than I am, man that makes me feel just a little one the short side.

This awesome guy is Uncle Terry (aka Tall guy or Uncle T) This man right here is one of the quietest guys (besides my dad) I have ever known. He is also one of the most "go with the flow" kind of guys I have every known as well. I love my uncle T he is quite the guy, Thanks for everything we talked about!! You are awesome!

This picture was taken at the concert. Kelly, Sara and I had a ton of fun that week while I was there visiting them! I need to go back to visit again soon, I miss those girls!! Thanks girls for the fun filled week, I really needed it!!

This is me and Will! Oh Will how much I miss our times that we would be able to sit and just talk about everything! You are one amazing friend!! Thanks for always being you and be so stinking sweet to me and just have a great time with life! I miss ya Will!!!

I touched a sea animal

I get this look all the time....from everyone, he is the only one that I got pictures of showing it...He is wondering what is going on ;) It is called ALOTS of Mischievousness!!

There are tons of unknowns in my life that I am trying to figure out at the moment.

This little squirrell wanted to come home with me, don't worry I didn't let him.

yes more pictures

2010-11-29T12:10:00.000-08:00

here are some pictures of me and my friends at Halloween

and the rest are pictures of some of my siblings around Thanksgiving time

Crazy

2010-11-17T09:37:00.000-08:00

So life has come and taken me for an exciting ride the last little while. Within the last few months I have been making some big changes in my life and sometimes I wonder why I have decided to take on so much change all at once...haha all I can think of is that I am some kind of crazy person that likes a challenge...so bring it on! To start off with a few months ago I started applying at a lot of different hospitals around the state and I was finally lucky enough to get a job interview about a month and a half ago for the new Intermountain Medical Center down in Murray, I interviewed and then a month went by without hearing a word from them. So I started looking at my other options and what else I would like to achieve with my life like going back to school, volunteering somewhere, what other jobs there are out there...stuff like that. Once I decided on a few things that I would like to do, I broke down and finally made a for sure decision. The biggest decision was that I am going to spend a couple of weeks this next summer in Africa. Oh boy this decision was a hard one but as well as a very exciting one. I am so excited and scared but it will be a great experience and I am so lucky to be able to be going. Right after I put my deposit in for my trip I got word from the Hospital that I got the job I applied for. Then after that I got a position at a different branch at AFCU...So I now have a big trip planned and need to get funding for and two new jobs within the last couple of months. I am so excited to have things start changing again but at the same time it is really hard having change. I have the hardest time dealing with change, I fight it every step of the way but at the same time I thrive and grow so much with change. I am scared/nervous/excited and happy all at once about all the different changes that are coming my way, I just hope that I can sail through it with flying colors :)

2010-10-04T15:06:00.000-07:00

I finally found the picture of my grandpa wyatt on the wiggle bike! I love it, my grandparents are just awesome!!

random pictures

2010-10-04T14:23:00.000-07:00

This is Angel's Landing, I hiked it back in August with a couple of girlfriends. It was one really fun hike/moutain climbing I have done in a long time!

I was testing out my spot lens on camera

This picture was me having fun with the grand piano and my camera. I love using things that will give you a cool picture with a reflection.

2010-10-02T18:34:00.000-07:00

2010-09-06T19:18:00.000-07:00

2010-09-02T14:41:00.000-07:00

Man I am ready

2010-06-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

I am so ready for things to start turning around again. Within the past week I have had both of my cars die on me and had to try and figure out how I am going to be able to pay to have two different cars fixed and still have money to get gas and pay the few bills that I have. I feel like I am stuck in a rut again, I am emotionally shot so if I don't seem put together lately and seem down a bit, well it is because I am. I am trying to be postive but sometimes it is not easy. I am trying to also figure out what I want to change in my life and I am just exhausted....Any suggestions on how to get out of this rut?

my sister Michele :)

2010-04-18T17:43:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Wyatt James!

2010-04-17T08:00:00.000-07:00

The Christensen Family

"I am so big!"

"Look there is the train"

"Mommy I am 3!!"

"Don't Mess with me Ashlee"

"Cheese!!"

"I love Mommy and Daddy!"

The Last Song

2010-04-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

I have always loved Nicholas Sparks as an author, he is amazingly talented. Some of my favorite books of his are: The Guardian, The Notebook, A walk to Remember and the newest one on my list of favorites is The Last Song. This is a great book...I love it!! Here are a few passages that I would like to share, words that echo my thoughts...or the other way around, however you would like to put it.

"Life, he realized, was much like a song. In the Beginning there is a mystery, in the end there is a confirmation, but it's in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile."

"God, he suddenly understood, was love in its purest form."

Nicholas Sparks, The last Song

Read it, you will love it

2010-03-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

"Here is my secret. It is very simple: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye." ~ Chapter XXI "The Little Prince"

Dexter Jay Andrus

2010-03-07T16:22:00.000-08:00

Great Grandma Stucki and Dexter

Grandma Wyatt and Dexter

Dexter

Big Sister Ruby Summer

I love this picture he have a great smile

He is so cute

Riley and Morgan

The newly weds holding the baby...

sledding

2010-02-22T07:51:00.000-08:00

Wyatt wanted to build a snowman with mom and dad

Wyatt wanted to race down the small hill

Us after the sled stopped

Riley, Makenize and I in the big sled about to go down the hill

The Christensen Family

Shauntae and Jim took Wyatt, Riley, Makenize and I up to the ranch on monday afternoon for a day full of sledding and snowmobiling...here are some of the pictures of us there. It was a fun afternoon away at the cabin.

Wyatt just wanted to shovel the snow

Shauntae testing out the small hill

Wyatt and Jim

The snow was so deep that when you tried to walk you would sink in really far so we crawled acrossed the snow...Shauntae crawling back to her snowmobile

Makenize and I and if you look you can see riley in the background digging out the snowmobile

Gunner, Riley and Makenize

Riley and Makenize

Riley laying on the snow after a rough ride up the mountain

Makenize chilling in the snow

random pictures

2010-02-02T11:32:00.000-08:00

Me Saying Cheese with my long hair, I loved it that day..it looked really cute :)

Ariana after we went snowboarding

The fog was really bad one day and I decided to go take a drive and take pictures, I love the fog for pictures

I did my hair wavy I loved it that day as well

check out the long hair :) I had on my "new happy dress" because I offically gained too much weight for the "old happy dress" sad day, but I had on this dress and it was so goregous I should have had a full body photo to show you but I can't find that one..I looked good that day :) Haha yes I know just a tad cocky, but it was only that day

Hardware Ranch

2010-01-19T18:25:00.000-08:00

Beautiful horse, he was staring at me

Reagan was grumpy

Malissa and her girls

Morgan

Jim, Shauntae and Wyatt

Grandma, upset Ruby, Shannon and Cohen

Malissa, Reagan, Morgan, and Randy

The mountain Lion, Cohen and grandpa

Cohen loves the sand

Reagan didn't like the Mountain Lion and grandpa is trying to get her to look at the camera

Shannon and Ruby with the moutain lion

Wyatt, Grandpa, Reagan, Ruby, Shannon with the big Elk

By the time we got on the sleigh Cohen was running trying to get off, Ruby and Reagan were cold, Morgan enjoyed the ride and had blast going over the bumps in the field, Wyatt was happy to look out his binoculars and the adults were trying to keep the kids happy. I would have had more pictures of Wyatt and Cohen but they like to run away from me and Ruby was not happy most of the time. It was fun to go back up to Hardware Ranch and see the Elk, I haven't done that for years. Thanks dad for taking me along with the grandkids

BRIGHAM BRANCH!!!

2010-01-12T21:02:00.000-08:00

Okay I know it has been a while but I don't think that I posted this yet, These pictures are from my last day at work at the Brigham Branch, right before my trip to Hawaii. I found this pictures and thought I would post it even though it has been about 4 months or so.

Jamie and I

Leah and I

Kylee, Leah, Jenessa, Me, Kassie talking on the phone to Jamie, and Bridgette!

(sorry the picture is blurry..the guy and my camera were not agreeing on taking a good picture)

Jenessa and I

Me and Karen

Bridgette and her birthday cake which Jenessa made

Bridgette you really are the best

The coolest cake

Sorry Girls it took me so long to post this but you guys are awesome and I miss you all!! Thanks for everything that you guys do, you guys are awesome!!

2010-01-12T20:44:00.000-08:00

pics

2009-12-20T21:54:00.000-08:00

bored bored bored

2009-12-19T08:56:00.000-08:00

random...
1. Do you like Blue cheese dressing? nope
2. Have you ever smoked cigarettes? No way!
3. Do you own a gun? no but I want to!!!
4. What flavor Kool Aid was your favorite? i don't like Kool Aid
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? yes I do still
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Hate them
7 Favorite Christmas movie? The flinestone Christmas Carol
8 What do you prefer to drink in the morning? water
9. Can you do push ups? a few :)
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? probably earrings
11. Favorite hobby? chilling with someone..
12. do you have A.D.D.? I don't think so
13.. Do you wear glasses/contacts? yes.
14. Middle name? Don't have one
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: can't wait for work to be over, tired, and excited it's the weekend!
16. Name 2 or 3 drinks you regularly drink? water, water and water
17. Current worry? don't really have one at this exact moment
18. Current hate right now? not getting enough sleep :P
19. Favorite place to be? home
20. How did you bring in the New Year? I don't remember
21. Name three people who will complete this: ? probably no one, I just did it cause I was bored at work again
22. Do you have pets? nope
23. Do you own slippers? not any more
24. What color shirt are you wearing? white
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? never tried
26. Can you whistle? yes i can
27. Where are you now? work on HAFB
28. Would you be a pirate? nope to dangerous ;)
29. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't sing, I try not to fall back asleep
30. Favorite Girl's Name? Lily
31. Favorite boy's name? I don't know
32. What's in your pocket right now? chapstick
33. Last thing that made you laugh? Nancy and Kassi here at work
34. What vehicle do you drive? Mazda
35. Worst injury you've ever had? Good question I don't know, what do you think?
36. Do you love where you live? sometimes :)
37. How many TVs do you have in your house? in my parents house i think there is 3 or 4 I don't know

really bored at work today

2009-12-18T11:20:00.000-08:00

1. last beverage→? Water
2. last phone call→? Amber
3. last text message – Kyle
4. last song you listened to- the radio is on here at work so I don’t know
5. last time you cried→?- last week

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice →? Yes
7. been cheated on? Yep :( more than once
8. kissed someone & regretted it? Yes
9. lost someone special?→? yes I have :(
10. been depressed?→? yeah, who hasn't at some point?
11.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
Black, white, and probably pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
12. Made new friends →? a few
13. Fallen out of love →? you have to be in love to fall out of love
14. Laughed until you cried →? of course!
15. Met someone who changed you →? yes
16. Found out who your true friends were →? Yes I did
17. Found out someone was talking about you→? actually yes
18. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→? yes
19. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?→? All of them
20. How many kids do you want to have→? Right now..none
21. Do you have any pets →? nope
22. Do you want to change your name→? nope
23. What did you do for your last birthday →? Hung out at my house and had a couple of friends over with my family
24. what time did you wake up today →? 6:00 am
25. What were you doing at midnight last night →? making brownies
26. Name something you CANNOT wait for →? I don’t know…that is a good question
27. Last time you saw your father→? Late last night
28. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Good question
29. What are you listening to right now->? The girls here at work talking
30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom →? Of course :)
31. What's getting on your nerves right now? The pain in my leg
32. Most visited webpage →? Yahoo.com
33. Whats your real name →? Ashlee Wyatt
34. Nicknames→? Ash, Ashkash, Shorty, Brucelee
35. Relationship Status -->single
36. Zodiac sign →? aries
37. Male or female or transgendeer? Female
38. Elementary? Central School, it got tore down many years ago but now it is where the New Brigham City LDS Temple is going to be, kind of cool
39. Middle School --> Box Elder Middle School
40. High school →? Box Elder High School
41. Hair color →Brown
42. Long or short --> Short
43. Height →? 5'2"ish
44. Do you have a crush on someone? →? Maybe ; )
45: What do you like about yourself? →? my soft hair
46. Piercings →? Ears
47. Tattoos →? …
48. Righty or lefty →? Righty

FIRSTS :
49. First surgery →? Some surgery when I was like 6 months old or so
50. First piercing →? Ears
51. First best friends →? Teresa : )
52. First sport you joined →? Swimming
53. First pet –Cat, Frisky
54. First vacation→? I am not sure
55. First concert –the Julianna Theory
56. First crush ---> I don’t remember

YOUR FUTURE :
57. Want kids? Not sure
58. Want to get married? maybe
59.careers? not sure

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
60. Lips or eyes →? Eyes
61. Hugs or kisses →? I love both:)
62. Shorter or taller →? Taller, that is not hard for me to find
63. Older or Younger →? Usually Older, not much though
64. Romantic or spontaneous -->? both, It depends on the timing and the mood
65. Nice stomach or nice arms →? both66. Sensitive or loud →? Depends, but both
67. Hook-up or relationship →? Relationship
68. Trouble maker or hesitant →? don't careHAVE YOU EVER :
69. Kissed a stranger →? yes
70. Drank hard liquor →? yes
71. Lost glasses/contacts →? yes
72. Sex on first date ----> Never
73. Broken someone's heart –>? I don't know maybe
74. Had your own heart broken –>? Yes
75. Been arrested →? No
76. Turned someone down →? Yes
77. Cried when someone died →? Yes
78. Liked a friend that is a guy--> my boyfriends were my best friends

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
79. Yourself -->? at times8
0. Miracles →? Sometimes
81. Love at first sight →? No
82. Heaven →? Kind of
83. Santa Clause →? Sort of
84. Kiss on the first date? →? No I don’t think I have
85. Angels →? Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
86. Is there one person you want to be with right now? →? Yes
87. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? →? No not really

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my little sister's wedding

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She is excited

so is he

halloween 2009 with my nieces and nephews

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kylee and her boys

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kylee and her sisters in the above photo

I think these last few are my favorite so far!

Things to eat at work

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Some of the best things I have found to eat at work are:
Potato Chips
M&ms
Beef Jerky
Smarties
Sour Patch Kids (mind you only the red ones though!)
I know I know that the healthiest but they are sure do taste fabulous!

Dear You

2009-09-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

Dear You,

You have been consuming my thoughts daily with out my permission. Which has in turn made me miss you terribly the last few days and weeks. It makes me frustrated that I have subconsciously allowed you back into my life. You were an amazing spot in my life, and I don't know why you have decided to come back to me in my thoughts and dreams, I like that you are visiting me again but it is hard to pay attention to things that are real, it is hard for me to want to live again. So if you would kindly say goodbye to me once again it would be very greatly appreciated. I will still miss you terribly but maybe this way it will be a little easier.

~Just Broken

more pictures

2009-09-05T18:46:00.000-07:00

Here are some more pictures that are in no special order

Me and Jules

I found this head stone

Me and the chineman's hat. I got the little story book about this little "hat" Island when I was little. It was one of my most favorite story books so naturally when I got to Hawaii I HAD to go see the "hat". We were actually going to go swim out to it but the day that we went it was really cold so we chickened out

I was sad when we were walking around the graves and found some that just said "unknown" and then some that said "Pearl Harbor Unknown" There were so many of them that it was kind of shocking and mind blowing to think that there were that many soliders that were not able to be identified. It breaks my heart.

I love the way this picture looks

This picture is by far one of my most favorite pictures that I took when I was in Hawaii. It can mean so much

Ultimate

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The Ultimate Thrill is below!

Me getting ready for the big jump

My jumper dude, hang loose

Check it out I am flying!!

It is so beautiful up this high

Houston we have landed

Me and Skyler after I landed

Jules and I after the jump

This is my heaven!

a few pictures from the gardens/jungle

2009-08-28T15:31:00.000-07:00

Here are just a few pictures from the gardens right by Julies house. It was very interesting and a fun adventure. It was really just like a jungle and you could just walk where ever you wanted to go, you could just wonder off by yourself, which is a very good thing cause I was there by myself. Anyway it was actually kinda freaky going into the jungle by myself. It was peaceful but almost a little too peaceful. I got lost a few times that I almost wondered if I was going to get out alive or not.

A quick one

2009-08-28T12:51:00.000-07:00

Hey you all! I miss you guys and hope every thing is going well with everyone but I just wanted to do a quick post about my Hawaii trip. So far it is going great. I have been able to spend a lot of the time at the beach, which to most would seem boring and not worth much, but for me the beach is my heaven, my safe place if you will. I just wanted to share with you guys some of my heaven, even if it is just by photos. So hope you enjoy!